Jesse's Journal

[ utilitarianism ]

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 18:25:23 GMT

what is a valid argument where seemingly negative means would justify the end?

for example: would you kill a baby to save a whole city if you had to?

I can't see this example or anything similar actually being a decision one would have to make.

I think we all have a sense of right and wrong and it is sad when that sense deteriorates over time to a point that one can deceive them self into believing hurting someone can be justified. I'm trying to think of a use case in which a negative means would justify a positive end.

Thinking from my friends blogs:
http://linxsan.vox.com/
http://www.disinnovate.com/post/87029902/endlessly-meaningless-justification

[ nerd ]

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 06:49:47 GMT

almost done with this website i've been working on. opinions please!

http://www.one30seven.com

[ my company ]

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 17:17:44 GMT

so the company i work for has a public launch today!

here's an article on it => [click here ]

testing

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:05:03 GMT

[ halloween ]

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 02:46:49 GMT

my friends and i dressed up as mortal kombat for halloween

[ my store ]

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 00:19:28 GMT

[ 21 days ]

Wed, 28 May 2008 05:51:13 GMT

I haven't smoked at all in 21 days! yeehaw!

it is likely that this weekend was the most festive three days apart from the soul sucking job i've inherited. the hermosa residence embodied great food, alcohol, shopping, bike riding, art projects, and visits from friends.. oh and amazing weather! askance i have a new bengal kitten. he's fierce and bonkers is slightly aggravated over the new addition.

holly and i possibly have rounded up enough money to get a pool. we are still in the early stages regarding the matter but nonetheless a pool @ hermosa = partay!

i'm confused
i came across a job offer to do something i like but make less money. its such a battle. on one hand i make a shit ton of money and can (for the most part) do whatever i want or buy whatever i want. HOWEVER even if i get promoted 3 more times up i wouldn't have a desirable job, the work sucks the soul out of you, i don't get any mental stimulation from it, and i don't see myself there for long.
on the flip side. this new position potentially will give me a skill set that is worth a lot, its not monotonous, very mentally stimulating, and in a worst case scenario i downgrade my car to a vespa and rock out that way for financial stability.

seems the new job is favorable. won't hear back for a month though. which makes soul sucking job even harder to conform to.

[ update ]

Sun, 18 May 2008 01:26:39 GMT

so i'm on Day 11 no smoking. i think i knocked it out. weird part is that i didn't plan, think, or choose to quit. i just stopped smoking. i feel confident that i'm finally able to control it.

I saw Narnia II - Prince Caspian last night. although work peers made fun of me it was fantastic!

holly and i are going to do some wicked remodeling with our tax return cash! i'm stoked.

and i've been having fun with new web design skills i've acquired.

that is my life

[ wow ]

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 06:03:56 GMT

http://zeitgeistmovie.com/

'I don't have to tell you things are bad. Everybody knows things are bad. It's a depression. Everybody's out of work or scared of losing their job. The dollar buys a nickel's work, banks are going bust, shopkeepers keep a gun under the counter. Punks are running wild in the street and there's nobody anywhere who seems to know what to do, and there's no end to it. We know the air is unfit to breathe and our food is unfit to eat, and we sit watching our TV's while some local newscaster tells us that today we had fifteen homicides and sixty-three violent crimes, as if that's the way it's supposed to be. We know things are bad - worse than bad. They're crazy. It's like everything everywhere is going crazy, so we don't go out anymore. We sit in the house, and slowly the world we are living in is getting smaller, and all we say is, 'Please, at least leave us alone in our living rooms. Let me have my toaster and my TV and my steel-belted radials and I won't say anything. Just leave us alone.' Well, I'm not gonna leave you alone. I want you to get mad! I don't want you to protest. I don't want you to riot - I don't want you to write to your congressman because I wouldn't know what to tell you to write. I don't know what to do about the depression and the inflation and the Russians and the crime in the street. All I know is that first you've got to get mad.[shouting] You've got to say, 'I'm a HUMAN BEING, Goddamnit! My life has VALUE!' So I want you to get up now. I want all of you to get up out of your chairs. I want you to get up right now and go to the window. Open it, and stick your head out, and yell,
[shouting]'I'M AS MAD AS HELL, AND I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!' I want you to get up right now, sit up, go to your windows, open them and stick your head out and yell - 'I'm as mad as hell and I'm not going to take this anymore!' Things have got to change. But first, you've gotta get mad!... You've got to say, 'I'm as mad as hell, and I'm not going to take this anymore!' Then we'll figure out what to do about the depression and the inflation and the oil crisis. But first get up out of your chairs, open the window, stick your head out, and yell, and say it:[screaming at the top of his lungs] "I'M AS MAD AS HELL, AND I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!" - Howard Beale (Network 1976)

[ haha ]

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 17:01:22 GMT

Looking for payday loans?

[ best song ever ]

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 04:04:33 GMT

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
There's too many places I haven't seen
And if I stayed here with you, now
Things just wouldn't be the same
Well I'm as free as a bird now,
And a bird you can not change.
And a bird you can not change.
And a bird you can not change.
Lord knows I can't change

Bye, bye, its been a sweet love.
And though this feeling I can't change.
Please don't take it badly,
The Lord knows I'm to blame.
And, if I stayed here with you now
Things just wouldn't be the same.
For I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll never change.
And the bird you can not change.
And the bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.

[ amen ]

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 18:58:05 GMT

i don't think I have been this stressed out in a long time.

[anxiety anyone ]

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 05:13:52 GMT

between school/homework - work - and my personal life I could easily go insane right now.

grrrrrr

I'm making a blogging website and i'm trying to incorporate a livejournal plugin
We'll see how it works.

www.jessefrye.com

[ mia!! ]

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 18:22:15 GMT

tonight we are adopting a rescued bulldog named mia!

and it made me realize how much of a hippie i am...

i work at the art institute
i'm vegan
i drive a hybrid
i have a garden
i have two rescued animals

LAME!!!!!!!!!!!

here are my babies

[ peep game ]

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 15:32:38 GMT

I applied for a management position at the Art Institute. We'll see what happens today... i think.

After work we're going to California to see the rock the bells show.
Wu-Tang Clan aint nuttin to fuk wit!!
We're going to surf it up, hang on the beach, party it up, road trip style!
Should be a blast!

Here's the details from the show...

Information:
Rock The Bells has been moved to the Hyundai Pavilion at Glen Helen. All tickets previously purchased for the NOS Events Center will be honored.

Lineup: Rage Against the Machine, Wu-tang Clan, Cypress Hill, The Roots, Nas, Mos Def, EPMD, Talib Kweli, Pharoahe Monch, Doom, Immortal Technique, Sage Francis, David Banner, Very Special Guest - Public Enemy, Jedi Mind Tricks, Felt, Living Legends, Brother Ali, Cage, Mr. Lif, Grouch & Eligh, Cage, Hangar 18, Blueprint, Lucky I Am.
Special Guest Performances
Hosted by Supernatural, Rahzel
DJ's Mike Relm + Icy Ice + C-Minus + Mark Luv

General parking is $10 and premiere parking $20.
VIP's will have open seating in the loge but will also be free to roam into the orchestra area and into the VIP area. VIP's will receive their fulfillment (t-shirts, backpacks, drink tickets, etc) in the VIP area.

Venue:

my baby is sad i'm leaving though.
she just got back from coronado with marbs and now i'm leaving.

[ update.bml ]

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 19:28:59 GMT

i really try to post in here but forget.

AUGUST 11TH - WU-TANG, RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE, NAS
ROCK THE BELLS - VIP TICKETS
I GOT TWO!

school at art institute is good. im learning some stuff.
learning more and more how to become a web design nerd.

i went running and i feel grrrreat today
i think im going to a wine testing even tonight
should be fabulous. i think im going to join a wine club.

anyways my garden is doing excellent
the eggplant is growing well, the tomatoes have babies, and im still waiting for the squash to bloom.
here is my eggplant...

oh and as much of a tool as i sound my grass is coming in green again.
haha.

oh! i found out the whole time i was promoted to manager at my last job i never got a pay increase so i should get a nice check in a bit. i think i'll pimp out the front yard and put an overhang on the back patio.

[ vichara ]

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 18:05:19 GMT

The Self has no vichara. That which makes the enquiry is the ego. The ‘I’ about which the enquiry is made is also the ego. As the result of the enquiry the ego ceases to exist and only the Self is found to exist. [Day by Day, Sri Ramanasramam, Tiruvannamalai, 2002]

[ mouni sadhu ]

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 04:05:04 GMT

so i've been getting back into meditation for my own sanity. it's quite peaceful. I want to dedicate myself to the concentration exercises again also.

for now i've been practicing the vichara meditaion.

it's basic principle is to continually ask yourself 'who am i' with sincere inquiry each time.

when you see something beautiful ask 'who is seeing this' ... I am... well 'who am i'... what part of me finds this beautiful?

the purpose is to quiet the mind until the intuition of the 'i' essence surfaces. which is outside of words supposedly.

in my personal experience I found that when I ask this I can't accept I am my body or mind. perhaps they are extensions of myself but not quite the whole picture or even the root of the picture.

the reason I came to this conclusion is because 'my' mind will disagree with some other part of me. this other part of me is what I hope to study more of.

if I am my thoughts how can I argue with myself? if I am my mind or thoughts I should have full reign over what thoughts enter my consciousness.

for now, in the early stages of this meditation, I conclude that I am the receiver of consciousness. this is the answer that seems to satisfy me most. as to defining this receiver that is another story... or perhaps just more new age mumbo jumbo.

[ hmm ]

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 14:38:44 GMT

lots to think about today.

The secret of being a bore is to tell everything.
- Voltaire

if anyone is in arizona and wants to model for me let me know.
i mean for 137 clothing. haha

[ well then ]

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 21:59:43 GMT

so i go to the art institute for web design now. pretty cool i guess.
www.myspace.com/jeeezus

i made my myspace cool at least.

The visionary lies to himself, the liar only to others.
- Friedrich Nietzsche

download the movie Sicko by michael moore.
it's honest jacked with how health care works

[ from the treo ]

Wed, 09 May 2007 19:04:52 GMT

if I could buy time I would.

I start my web design program at the art institute tomorrow!

friday is brandons bday
saturday is marbs party
sunday is family day with holly's mom

I need to do house stuff
plumber costed $700
then the ac went out
money pit!!!

[ neuvo ]

Wed, 02 May 2007 17:26:49 GMT

so i have to work really hard at my new job
and at my other job i was really good
and its humbling, annoying, and frustrating not being up there

now that i think about it.. im kinda in a shitty mood right now!
haha

[ day labor ]

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 15:48:27 GMT

okay so lately i started a new job at the art institute
i've been moving out of the del rio house (a newest tempe landmark)
and moving into to the hermosa house

friday through sunday, shane and i did so much painting, house repair, primer, more painting... moving 2 years and 5 roomates crap out of the house. i knew we would be the only two doing all the work for this. so crappy and im glad i have a job where i sit down as of right now. i hope one of the roomates ask for a deposit back!

here are a couple pix of the new place.
i'll take more updated ones once the disarray has been eliminated.

master bathroom before paint

green kitchen!

black chalkboard wall!

more kitchen

4 coats of red paint =/

upstairs loft/master bedroom

[ changes ]

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 00:28:30 GMT

i quit my job of 3 years today to work for the art institute.
wow. it was so hard leaving my team. they worked so hard for me.
and im buying a house

what changes.

[ been awhile ]

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 05:33:02 GMT

okay what's new
i sold out on my moto q and got a palm treo
touch screens are the bomb

my class ends today! should get an A!!

holly and i made an offer on a house and they accepted!
just wait to see the before/after
good lord pine wood derby. dope house though
jacuzzi tub and an atrium are my faves of it.
loft bedroom too!
wait till the housewarming fiesta!
(maybe marbs will invite me to her house now that i have one)!!

still learning flash stuff
im getting way more comfortable with it
now i have to pick up the actionscript side of it

other than that its work (did i post i got promoted)?
and school
and flash
and the suns games!